He is really very good,
singing for tips at a sidewalk
restaurant on the Paseo.
No one is listening.
He may not make anything –
it’s that kind of night.
He will move on to
the next place, there’s always
hope. You don’t get into this
business with any sort of
expectations, though. No
one chooses the music, it
chooses you. It creates a
world you can enter, a world no one
sees but you. It lifts you
away from them.
He concentrates on not seeing
their disinterest. Conversations go on
just as if he didn’t exist.
A couple nights ago, playing with
his friends, a little drunk,
just goofing off, trying songs he
didn’t really know – then he
felt his wings unfurl. He sang
a couple songs he loved and felt
them fly. Tonight he only has
the memory. He has the cold
pavement, people who don’t listen,
corny songs he thinks they want to hear.
He will play until the next
guy comes and then he will
approach each table like a
beggar and they will brush
him away. He’s used to this.
He thinks of his friends,
that magic night, the
half drunk bottle of tequila,
songs that took flight.
He is now singing a song his
grandmother liked, bland, old fashioned.
There’s no tequila in this song,
there’s no love.
People like it better that way.
by Cher Bibler
